Oh, Life

Lots of balls in the air right now, kids, and I'm feeling generous, so if you want to make jokes about some of those balls flying at my face in the comments section, I'll tolerate it.

Less than two months until I get married and it just doesn't seem like enough time! Not enough time to line up the details, get toned, get fitted, get whiter teeth, clearer skin, the right music, the right gifts, the right timing, etc. So, I'm taking tomorrow to just work on wedding stuff, because my job is such these days that I just do not have the time to plan my wedding from work. Can you IMAGINE?

This means that I will need to tear myself away from endless home improvement/reality shows to make decisions and plans and lists. There will be a ton of coffee involved.

I'm also starting a sort of Bridal Bootcamp tomorrow that will hopefully get me into the shape in which I'd like to be on my wedding day. I'm also hoping my Proactiv order arrives tomorrow because all this that I'm writing about here? It's apparent on my FACE. Awesome!

But I'm not complaining. Please don't mistake this conversation for complaining. I still can hardly believe I'm here at this point in my life, planning a wedding and ordering prenatal vitamins online (Hi, Baby! I ordered prenatal vitamins online! Please do not freak out!). I can't believe I get to wear the prettiest dress I have ever seen in less than 2 months! It's all flying by so fast, I wish I could hang onto it a little longer...

So, I haven't written about them yet, but I've had a total of four Bridal Shower-type celebrations. There was a shower in late June in Indiana thrown for us by MFDC's parents and sister, Gina. Then there was a Bridal Tea hosted by Meghan two weekends ago. Finally, last weekend I was in New Jersey for two back-to-back showers: one for my dad's side and one for my mom's. I had so much fun at all four events and I will post several pictures from all of them. I was waiting to do so until they had all passed and I could cover them in one fell swoop on this blog because 1.) I'm lazy and 2.) I'm lazy!

I am just so grateful for my family and my friends, and I've never been more aware of how much until I started preparing to take this giant step into the next phase of my life. Sometimes it's hard for me to feel the love people beam in my direction, mostly because I don't feel very deserving of it. Which is why I am in therapy and take a little green pill every morning. But I think I've come far enough to know that when people gather to celebrate an event in my life, they do so out of great love. Sure, I may still have to remind myself that it's all very, very real. This difference is that now I accept it.

Life is good.