Sugar Free

I just carried a virtually untouched tray of muffins, bagels & pastries out of a meeting and into our kitchenette. It was the longest 10 yards of my life. I went back to my desk and wept.

As many of you know, I have cut refined sugar, etc., from my diet. Not that I was a crazy sugar eater or anything, but it's evil and so it must go. And the simple act of me stating that here puts added pressure on me to actually go all the way with it. RockDog's inspiring words have also helped me through this dark time in my life.

I must say, I was expecting to be a lot bitchier. In fact, I was expecting to mutate into a crazy, three-headed, fire-breathing Monster Biatch of jilted Drag Queen proportions. That does not seem to be the case as of yet, so I am anticipating a gathering storm of sugar withdrawal. As soon as it's completely gone from my body, I don't expect to see my sunny disposition for at least two weeks (experts say this is how long it takes an individual to form a new habit).

In the meantime, I am scrambling for new habits as a way to batten down the hatches. In preparation, pre-existing, older, healthy-for-any-female-my-age habits will be ramped up. Like shopping with my girls (cardio), sleeping (I NEVER SLEEP, so to encourage myself to get into bed at a decent hour and stay there, and to convince my subconscious to actually STAY asleep, I PIMPED MY BED, yo! I bought a memory foam thingie, and a double-padded mattress thingie, and new pillows...ah, like sleeping on a cloud, if clouds were seriously firm), going to the gym (as soon as that whore from NYSC gets back to me), etc...These habits and a few unlisted ones (all healthy, I promise) will be attacked with renewed, sugar-free vigor.

As for NEW new habits, well, I suppose putting myself first will need to be one of them. I've heard that works out well, if you manage to succeed in doing it.

I'm going to go back and mine some habits from the old days, as well. Like cooking. OH! And shopping for and buying CDs! I miss that. I miss putting on those disgusting headphones in Tower Records and listening to new stuff. It's something I thought about doing last night when I was near a Tower, since I'm currently iTunesless but craving new music. Made me realize how much I missed actually doing it. Alas, I was beat and had a headache.

I'm going to go eat lunch now, which will involve a lot of soluble fiber and most likely chicken.